today has been less than steller.
thank whatever, I have a great support system.
I have been in the right place at the right time today.
when MM came home today from being laid off for personal reasons(read past posts) and yes he is still sober, he was able to hand me his final pay check. he didn't go to the bank, or the pawn shop or the dealer. he came to me, still in shock, and gave it to me.
he needs some kind of treatment...
problem being, he has been resisting me and my assignments. he is doing them, and he went to a meeting tonight. it rubbed him the wrong way. he said they were bashing women.
funny, he used to until he met me.
I cooked today, it is something that makes me happy.
I have a blog "All you can stomach"
problem is it is to hard to try and translate my recipes into things others can use.
"cook until it smells done" How do I explain that?
so I made my new bacon sandwiches, and 2 HUGE batches of Polenta.
as what to do now... if I get woken up tomorrow someone will be in a world of hurt.
now I disappear for a bit before my brain fries.
About Me
- Adorabibble
- too cold, Alaska, United States
- now as to the love I have been getting from my followers that comment, thanks! I am having my rough times, I am pissed, I have every right to be. if I don't get this out safely I will hurt myself. I always do. so this is the place that I have to vent. my choice. it will be rough to read, it is hell to feel it. this is not a happy shiny place any more. read if you want but the disclaimer reads like this: ugly and putrid, welcome to the shit that sits in my head and is killing me slowly. it will not be fun, it might be funny. it will be raw and like an open sore that you are picking at even though you know better. this is the shit that I torture myself with, that leaves me with no hair and open wounds on my body, cause I can't stop tearing at my self. None is actively abusing me but me. there are assholes, and if you give it you will get it in spades, good or bad. you have been warned.
5 comments:
Tough times, sorry to hear about J losing his job, in today's economic climate that is not good.
"Cook until it smells done," I know exactly what you mean.
AV
But don't ask me to explain it either... LOL
AV
AV~ J still has his job, it is MM that lost his job, due to crack and such.
and I know, that is my problem.
Sorry, got confused with all the letters. LOL
AV
AV I know what you mean...
I am out in public with the 3 of them, (J, MM, and cave troll) and It is like my mother used to yell at me and my brother..."Shannon, Sean, whatever the fuck your name is, get over here!!!NOW!!!"
I understand it is a common occurrence with mothers with multiple children...
except I am not a mother and they only act like children.
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