I'm back in the saddle to speak, the pain pills are helping, and I am starting to ween myself off of them, cause pain pills suck!
I am definitely sore, but I can hold my bladder better so immediate improvement right away.

tomorrow is my fifth anniversary of living here and meeting my other half J.
my life started that day, at least this part of it.
the differences between now and then?
I am not actively suicidal.
I have self esteem.
I can cope with hard situations and bullies.
I am no longer a victim, and my favourite word is that of a two year old's~ NO!
NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO!
I like who I am, most of the time and I love myself.
I have learned how to behave around the rest of you.
I am cute and no longer a giant pain in the ass.
I am good enough, smart enough and dog gone it people like me!
I have hope.

that is more than I have ever had, and it is enough for now.
so happy anniversary! to my new life and all the love and happiness I have found or created!