I am sick with an ear and sinus infection, and on antibiotics. got my first decent night of sleep in a week.
mom called last night and I am ignoring her.
just can't deal with it and properly take care of myself.
I wanted so much for it to be different this time.
it wasn't. same shit different year.
there is a reason I have nothing to do with my blood family.
the only good thing they produced was me.(that is just my perspective)
my mother has made her life and now she has to live it.
and it will be with out me.
I hate that fact, not my mother.
she is what she is.
thanks so much for all of the love and support.
you all rock!
About Me
- Adorabibble
- too cold, Alaska, United States
- now as to the love I have been getting from my followers that comment, thanks! I am having my rough times, I am pissed, I have every right to be. if I don't get this out safely I will hurt myself. I always do. so this is the place that I have to vent. my choice. it will be rough to read, it is hell to feel it. this is not a happy shiny place any more. read if you want but the disclaimer reads like this: ugly and putrid, welcome to the shit that sits in my head and is killing me slowly. it will not be fun, it might be funny. it will be raw and like an open sore that you are picking at even though you know better. this is the shit that I torture myself with, that leaves me with no hair and open wounds on my body, cause I can't stop tearing at my self. None is actively abusing me but me. there are assholes, and if you give it you will get it in spades, good or bad. you have been warned.
3 comments:
Hard decision... sometimes things have to be put in the too hard basket, despite what we want, we have to do what we need. Got to look after No.1, if you don't you're not there to look after anyone else. Hang in there, hope you got a second good night's sleep.
AV
I am planning on it. thanks AV.
Love you Beth.
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