well it is the ass crack of dawn, no scratch that if you don't sleep it is night still? not at 815 am.
I have been sick all night, just one of those things and I am stressed to boot.
I see dr fucktard in over an hour.
well it should be interesting.
well wish me luck I will need it, as the damn dr is an idiot.
would he treat someone he loves like this? I think not.
I don't want him to love me just not be a total asshole and try to kill me.
I am going to ask him "what were you thinking doing what you have done?"
what do you mean? the ultram. if he gives me the drug seeking behaviour talk, I am getting up and walking out
drug. seeking. behaviour.
yeah that why I am puking everyday for the last 7 months coming off these damn meds.
I don't know weather to laugh or cry. god help me if I start doing both.
I am primed for a major melt down, I have to be really careful.
wish me well I will need it.
About Me
- Adorabibble
- too cold, Alaska, United States
- now as to the love I have been getting from my followers that comment, thanks! I am having my rough times, I am pissed, I have every right to be. if I don't get this out safely I will hurt myself. I always do. so this is the place that I have to vent. my choice. it will be rough to read, it is hell to feel it. this is not a happy shiny place any more. read if you want but the disclaimer reads like this: ugly and putrid, welcome to the shit that sits in my head and is killing me slowly. it will not be fun, it might be funny. it will be raw and like an open sore that you are picking at even though you know better. this is the shit that I torture myself with, that leaves me with no hair and open wounds on my body, cause I can't stop tearing at my self. None is actively abusing me but me. there are assholes, and if you give it you will get it in spades, good or bad. you have been warned.
1 comment:
Actually, I see this post was from last Thursday....so I hope it went well, Bib, and you are feeling better! HUGS!
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