if this post gets finished or not.
things went better than expected at Dr.
I am coming off of the meds to fast, and as a result I am very sick.
I am also trying to deal with all the energy and bullshit that less meds entail.
I am at the end of my rope here mentally. guys in the building are stomping my boundary's and pushing like hell cause everyone is acting badly.
the current sign on my door says: unless you have business with me(Shannon) get away from my door. if you look for J here I will call the police, ignore this at your own peril, LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!
I get to writing a post and all fuck breaks loose. so they sit and never get finished.
I can feel my body is starting in a flare period. what does that mean ? all I know is it will hurt, what else is new?
it always hurts. sometimes it is good, sometimes bad. always pain.
I am still losing weight, and I have a tan so I will post a picture soon when ever that is.
well so much for not losing my temper in the time it took to write this post.
if this post wasn't already dome it would have been shit canned like the dozen others, I have tired to write in the last month.
I am NOT okay here.
I need a vacation, If any one wants me I will be in my heating blanket sobbing.
About Me
- Adorabibble
- too cold, Alaska, United States
- now as to the love I have been getting from my followers that comment, thanks! I am having my rough times, I am pissed, I have every right to be. if I don't get this out safely I will hurt myself. I always do. so this is the place that I have to vent. my choice. it will be rough to read, it is hell to feel it. this is not a happy shiny place any more. read if you want but the disclaimer reads like this: ugly and putrid, welcome to the shit that sits in my head and is killing me slowly. it will not be fun, it might be funny. it will be raw and like an open sore that you are picking at even though you know better. this is the shit that I torture myself with, that leaves me with no hair and open wounds on my body, cause I can't stop tearing at my self. None is actively abusing me but me. there are assholes, and if you give it you will get it in spades, good or bad. you have been warned.
2 comments:
Sorry to hear youre feeling that bad... I guess it does not help to hear that we hope you feel better soon
I wish it was better and sometimes it is, and when it isn't it is really bad. I hate that it is all doom and gloom, and that is what you all hear from me. I want it to be different and a slowly it is.
thanks for the love.
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