Friday, April 27, 2012

J had a pacemaker put in today. *SIGH* the rest is wait and see.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

thing are better

Just that so we are all in a holding pattern as he heals and they keep doing tests. things are better. I am very tired, so I am off to sleep for the first time in a week before midnight. night all.

Saturday, April 21, 2012


J is in the hospital, bad news, he just needs time to get better, he will be in at least a week, but after a number of scares, he is starting to improve. he is diabetic and got a stomach bug, then he got dehydrated, then it got bad. bottom line they are still looking and doing tests and he is at least COHERENT! and things are starting to move again, thank what ever. so I am just hanging on doing my best. stress is great for you I lost 12 lbs this week. I am now 358lbs for a total of 154 lbs. so some better news. thing here are fine, chin up and all. later.

Monday, April 2, 2012

still here

I am still here, I am just so fucken tired!

so we are just rolling along keeping my head above water.

I had a run in with a bully Dr, while looking for a new Dr due to the fact that all of the other Dr's are idiots, and I don't see them any more.
I need some one who wont push pills and surgery.
that they will push is hard work, and exercise and self love.
there is time for patience, and it is not now.
the Dr asked me if I was smoking crack and told J to SHUT UP!
he is an angry little man on his way to a nervous break down.
apparently Dr's don't like me calling other "colleagues" "IDIOTS"
and he was transferring all kinds of his shit to me.
I spent all after noon crying.
you know what?
I am still here and intact and still looking for "Dr- doesn't- exist".

so anyone know a great Dr, that doesn't push pills or surgery? and takes Medicaid and me and J are a package deal- we see the Dr together, at the same time. they can't fuck with you as bad if you have back up it is more equalizing. oh well..
strength through unity! sorry the Fascist in me just came out...
we will succeed, and i do mean the royal WE.
love to all, except those of you that I don't :P