Sunday, June 26, 2011

I snagged this from AV or click on the title!

I hope all is well with all of you this lovely Sunday morning!

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

My internet connection at best is severely unstable at this time.
this is the first time I have been able to get on since Saturday.
will work on getting to read everyone's stuff.
have not forgot about all of you.

Monday, June 13, 2011

another year come and gone

to morrow is my 41st b day. Yeah me! I rock! I survived another year.

we will be having jello poke cake, in lemon cake/lime jello, and lemon cake and strawberry jello.
on tomorrow and one for Sunday when mine and CT's b day bash will be held.

we will be having the party Sunday afternoon, and fun and food will be had by all.
(I will be doing all the cooking, something I am totally okay with as I haven't done any kind of party cooking for a bit so I am not totally burned out on it. I will be after this Sunday.)
it is cheaper his way. no extravagant cake or presents it will be a quiet bday.
Although I got a hand full of organic dates this am, Nice HUH?
speaking of dates, I make a really easy cooked pudding.

bananas (ripe and chunked up out if the peel of course)
dates (get the stone out, gloves will keep your hands from getting sticky, or you can spend a grand time chewing on your fingers. getting all the sugar off of your hands.)
and coconut milk. (well a little butter for the pan, and some vanilla, the good stuff, and maybe some pumpkin pie spice (I put it in every thing) ( if I was stuck with only 3 spices to cook with it would be basil, cumin and PPS, so there)
put it on the stove in a pan and cook over medium heat until most of the bananas and dates become undistinguishable from the rest (15 minutes or so)
serve hot or cold and it is delicious.
and as far as amounts equal dates to bananas, and a couple of cans of coconut milk.
this would usually go on my blog "all you can stomach" that is my cooking blog but what the hell... I am feeling festive.
so happy un-birthday to me and happy birthday to me tomorrow.

I will be having fun between melt downs.

love you all and thanks for all the support you have all given me in the last year.
I hope that this year to come will be as awesome as the last!

Saturday, June 11, 2011

well gee....

My last post was about frustration and things that happen that I really don't want to deal with.
I got really angry and made my self sick. are my expectations realistic?, no.
I want (just like everyone else) is to be treated for the person I am.
that is why the internet is so great. I don't know most of you except through your writings.
I have found some very beautiful people.
I may not always read or comment but you guys(and gals) are never far from my heart.

I have been off enjoying the summer and working on my tan (which is finally peeling(I guess I did get sun burned!!~!)) and trying to enjoy myself before winter hits and I start losing meds again.
we are looking at 3 more winters of this.
at least.

so I love you guys and think happy thoughts!

(apparently ignoring people works really well, I think the guy has gotten the hint that he is dog shit in my book)

Monday, June 6, 2011

while I am here...

I will discuss something that is currently bugging me.
I am losing weight. more than that I am gaining muscle and dropping size.
it may come to a screeching halt.
I cannot get my head wrapped around this.


I wish I was sexless.
I don't like the looks I am getting.
it actually hurts when I catch a guy staring at my tits.
yes they are big, but come on, look at my eyes, not where you think my nipples are.
we had a new tenant move in and he is "let me take you out to lunch," and "you are the perfect woman Shannon."
I don't let men buy me anything, you know why? cause I owe them a blow job for the lunch they paid for.
so I am hiding out in my room afraid of running into said asshole. (I am afraid of what I am going to say to him, it will not be nice.)
I am afraid for the next guy that is inappropriate. I don't know what I will do, but years of repressed actions for all the times I have been raped will be ugly.
I am really afraid.
I just want to be left alone.
this is seriously screwing with my head and my weight loss.
last time I was raped in 2006, the weight just piled back on.
maybe therapy tomorrow will help.
I feel trapped and I HATE it.
carry on with you life and thanks for listening.

Sunday, June 5, 2011


big or new to report in a holding pattern and trying not to think about what comes next.
(more meds to get rid of) (get into see the rheumatologist)

just trying to enjoy the summer and my 41st bday later this month.

hope all is well with you.

all my love