well life here has been like eating broken glass.
having a great time outwardly. bloody and broken inside.
I know why, I don't know how.
I had a new flash back yesterday, took a pill and went to sleep crying like a wounded animal, with the bottle in my hand in case 1 didn't do it, which it did thank god.
I am doing the could of would of should of...
THAT HELPS EMINENTLY.
actually not at all, it makes it worse.
I haven't shared it with anyone yet, it hurts just way to much and now I am medicated for my shower, it has gone back to that... FUCK!
I got a dr's appt I have to go to.
thanks all for listening.
I don't expect any feed back, what is the to say?
Nothing this is my life. la de da!
thanks for reading.