Tuesday, September 20, 2011

the more things change...

they just do. well for an update to all who care, and if you don't care then why are you reading this? just a thought, those who matter don't mind, and those who don't matter do mind. which are you? if you are the second then... fuck off!

I have lost 94 lbs since this time last year. I am down to 418lbs.
how did I do it? I'm sick.
still trying to get into the rheumatologist, who knows what year that will be, if it is this hard to even get a referral?
*sigh*
I vomit daily, usually first thing in the am, and usually when I eat.
I look good. (snort)
umm. yeah right...
the sun tan and growing my hair out, and the weight loss become me.
(now if I can just keep from loosing the rest of my teeth.)
CT is learning trigger point release therapy from Freedom and youtube. it is the only way I can move. even them it is screaming pain.
sometimes it is just screaming.
when it hits it hits hard and leaves me drained for days.
I sleep allot more and I am less medicated, go fig?
*Sigh*
things are in the works for the winter, and the spring beyond.
I am actually looking forward to winter.
*SIGH*
although fall is the best time of year.
this winter I will start the great medication reduction, again.
so for now I sit under my heating blanket, and read and watch TV.
I have allot of help between CT, and J and CH. and all of my other lovely friends...
so for the most part things are good. not great but in time I hope for things to get better.
what else do I do, but have hope?
no one said I would live forever.
or that it would be fair or fun.
it is interesting
lots of love and thanks for reading.

3 comments:

Tempo said...

Glad that youre still loosing the weight...sad that youre so damn sick though, I hope that will pass as time goes by but I'm not silly enough to think time is not dragging terribly for you. You'd be in late Autumn now? With a very beautiful Winter to come, I envy you being able to see that every day. (though I dont like cold)

Adorabibble said...

I have had a couple of good day and I am actually hungry, so, so far so good.
in 3 weeks I hope to go off more of the elavil. so I need some time to be able to eat. thanks for the support!

Beth said...

Splendiferous thoughts of healing to you, Bib. I hope the winter brings magic. So sorry to hear about your ills. Losing weight is good...but not by puking it off. I know you're a fantastic cook and eat healthy food, so hopefully you're getting good nutrition. So glad you have friends close by. You've got them far away too :-)