Thursday, May 6, 2010

thanks all!

for all the love and support.

I am scared and have a bad feeling.
I am worried about them placing the IV.
It takes at least 2 tries to get blood.
surgery before last took them 10 tries to start and 3 1/2 hours.
was 1/2 an hour late for surgery.
the last four they had the anaesthesiologist and the Doppler machine.

I slept well last night I was able to talk to the Dr and tell him that I was scared and he told me more of what to expect, they usually do this in the office w/o much in the way of sedatives.
I am in so much pain that they are going to have to put me completely under.
I have stopped losing weight, due to the pain.
it reminds me of being abused as a kid.
so this is the next step to getting me well. and on the right track.
so now that i have expressed my fear it will all be fine and I will be better than ever.
I will just be in more pain for the couple of weeks.
as they say the only way out is through...
see ya all later.
love and fishy fishes


Beth said...

It'll be ok, Bib. I know, It's scary, but you will feel so much better after some recuperation time. Treat yourself to something nice and decadent when you get home :)

Argentum Vulgaris said...

Tough little kitteh. You'll be cool, just hang in there and we'll see you when you get back on deck.