thanks all!

for all the love and support.

I am scared and have a bad feeling.
I am worried about them placing the IV.
It takes at least 2 tries to get blood.
surgery before last took them 10 tries to start and 3 1/2 hours.
was 1/2 an hour late for surgery.
the last four they had the anaesthesiologist and the Doppler machine.

I slept well last night I was able to talk to the Dr and tell him that I was scared and he told me more of what to expect, they usually do this in the office w/o much in the way of sedatives.
I am in so much pain that they are going to have to put me completely under.
I have stopped losing weight, due to the pain.
it reminds me of being abused as a kid.
so this is the next step to getting me well. and on the right track.
so now that i have expressed my fear it will all be fine and I will be better than ever.
I will just be in more pain for the couple of weeks.
as they say the only way out is through...
see ya all later.
love and fishy fishes
Adora!