Well...4

I have had some quality sleep, oh boy the difference that makes.

My neighbor has had to have the woman banned from the building.
I refused to move as did he. I apologised due to my unhappy voice.
not cause I had to, because that is the kind of person I am.
it doesn't matter if i think I wasn't yelling, he did.

I have had some time to think. and meditate, I have gotten some really great advise from friends and the owner. he told me that the only one holding me back was me. I was pissed at that, cause he was right.
so that is what i have been thinking about. me.
and what I do to myself, and how it affects others.
people don't like it when I am unhappy, or worse.
for starters they have to deal with me and they love me.
and boy I don't make it easy.

so I have had yet another life lesson courtesy of my behaviour.

notice I didn't say anyone else's? ya know why?
I am the only one i can control. and i am not responsible for anyone other than me.
I am responsible to them and that is what i think being an adult is.
it sucks sometimes, others it is great.

the world looks allot better when I sleep.
love ya all happy valentines day!
love and fishy fishes,
Adorabibble!