Sunday, November 15, 2009

frustration

I found an old acquaintance thru one of there family member's.
I owed an apology to this person. I was one of many at the scene of the crime.
I gave the apology and no ands if's or but's.
I am sorry I screwed up and for any hurt I have caused you.
I get a response. "of thanks I think I am mostly over it."

then don't accept the apology.
I made no excuses for my behaviour, and I get a guilt trip.
so I responded that if they wanted to keep in communication they would have to as I had made my amends.

this is one of my peeves, you are sorry or not you accept it or not, but no little bullshit snipes, or excuses.


I know I made the amend for my sake and hopefully for him.
I know I had higher expectations.
there is still healing here.
just another shit thing to work through.
this person is in a bad place and I get snarky.
that is why I feel so bad.

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Heaven is the whole of the heart
and heaven don't tear you apart
yeah heaven is the whole of the heart
and heaven don't tear you apart
there's too many kings wanna hold you down
and a world at the window gone underground
there's a hole in the sky where the sun don't shine
and a clock on the wall and it counts my time
and heaven is the whole of the heart
and heaven don't tear you apart
yeah heaven is the whole of the heart
and heaven don't tear you apart
there's a song on the air with a love-you line
and a face in a glass and it looks like mine
and i'm standing on ice when i say that i don't hear planes
and i scream at the fools, wanna jump my train
and heaven is the whole of the heart
and heaven don't tear you apart
yeah heaven is the whole of the heart
and heaven don't tear you apart
yeah heaven
ah heaven
yeah heaven

2 comments:

Jess Mendez said...

Dear Adora,

thank you for sharing. And I think your musical selection is like a cold cup of dark salsa just waiting for my fingers to dip the toasty tortilla chip.

The bottom line is the spiritual experience, anything else is just space, and mass. You get to clean your side of the street and live in PEACE. What ever they say does not matter.

So I fed the hamster....heeheehee

I love it.....

take care sweetheart.
Jesse

Adorabibble said...

I love Jazzlyn, I am working on it. I just get so damn optimistic that they will be in a great place and that the world is roses, cause for all the shit my world is so good.

thanks for the love!

Adora!